if you really knew me.

so, on a website that i have not visited in a while, i found a new section, called "if you really knew me." i felt somewhat inspired, so here is my own version.

If You Really Knew Me, You'd Know That...

• i will avoid talking on the phone if there is any other way to communicate
• i am very afraid of growing up and dealing with all the things a grown-up must think about, even though i try to act as mature as possible
• i want to make a difference in the world
• i desire to be a mother more than anything else in this world
• i do not want you to give up on me, even if i say i do
• not knowing about next year really does bother me
• i want to know and be known desperately
• my job drives me crazy
• swing dancing is my passion, but sometimes i feel like i am too passionate about it
• all i need is a smile, a hug, a pleasant remark, and it can change my whole day
• other people intrigue me, and i wish i could make a job out of loving people, sharing their lives during the good and the bad times; i think this is a small part in my desire to go into counseling, apart from my past
• i am not out of the woods yet, and i do not know if i will ever be, this side of heaven, but while there are hard moments i can see the Lord redeeming and sustaining me